Thursday, November 10, 2011

Oh, How Temporary

I woke up with birds chirping and the sun shining. Yet, the other day was one of those days. One of those days I can say without hesitation was hard. It was a very hard day.

I didn't know why or where it was coming from but my very organized worries back in my file folders in my head decided to fall out and become big and scary. For me, I had a really hard time choosing to be happy.

It was the debt. The bills. The rent. The food. The school. The husband. The family. The move. The dog. The job. Oh that job! That dang necessity that does not let me stay home to cook or play with my little family. It makes me work and and break out and all of it for not enough money! All of these thing and all of the little things that come along with having such beautiful blessings.

It wasn't as if I felt like I couldn't do it anymore. It was a logical hard day. I knew that I could handle them all because I have been doing it but it just felt like too much for a short little while. It was completely valid. (It is important to let yourself know you are not crazy and that it is okay to feel overwhelmed sometimes. Remember this was a logical hard not a crazy hard.)

So I did what a women would do. I cried. I cried at the gym in the middle of my workout and on my whole walk back to my car. Then I called my mom. (duh)

The thing about this all though is sometimes we can forget. We can forget what we are here on Earth for. The whole ETERNAL purpose of this life. All of my worries are important (mostly) but the most important thing is experience and gaining a better knowledge. How lucky am I to feel such overwhelming worry about such things in life that I may better understand the atonement of my Savior, Jesus Christ. Also, sometimes we need to sit and look and realize as we sort through a really hard day that it is totally and completely TEMPORARY.

This too will pass. If I wasn't worried about all of these things, I will certainly be worried again and about something new. THAT IS OKAY! Feel it. Give yourself time to understand it and work it out. LEARN from it.


ps: Make sure to have an attitude of gratitude. Thank you Mom and Dad.

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